Trusting … God Has a Plan for Me …

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jer 29:11

Plans… especially this time of year we think about our plans, we make resolutions, sometimes look back at our past plans. It can be a time of great hope…

I’m reminded of this time last year, I had many resolutions for 2013. I had grand plans for cooking new recipes, exercising and health, more patience and organization at home and work.

Then, I had cancer. At age 43, with no risk factors and “good” health, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. My world was turned upside down. My days were filled with tests and results, appointments and medical plans. I was treated with chemotherapy, a bilateral mastectomy, and 25 rounds of radiation.

My year was not anything like I had planned. I had set aside many of my original resolutions, forgotten others. My new plan was simply to make it through the year. My task was to fight cancer. There were countless appointments and tests, treatments that caused my hair and eyelashes to fall out, burned my skin and knocked me out. Some days and weeks were so dark, it was hard to find hope in this new plan.

Life usually isn’t what we’ve planned, often it is difficult and heartbreaking. But every step is an opportunity to step closer to God. To believe, to hope, sometimes to fall apart and know where to turn to be put back together. I did this one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time.

So, my resolutions from last year were almost ridiculous; instead of cooking healthy new meals, I went months avoiding the kitchen. Instead of increasing my health and running new races, my runs turned to walks. My patience nearly disappeared, my organization system was completely overwhelmed. But one step after another, one day after another I moved forward with hope. Slowly, my health is returning. Once again I can run, some days even with ease. I recently baked for the first time in nearly a year. My patience and organization are still works in need of much progress :).

I would never have guessed this plan, never have chosen it, but I’m hopeful for this new year. I don’t have grand plans or resolutions this year. But I know that I will keep moving forward trusting that God has a plan for me, one with hope and a future… :)

My prayer for you is that you too will find hope in God’s plan for you.

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